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[+18]Pieces of my heart/Tom[ONE-SHOT]
Pieces of my heart
this ff is about Tom's lost love...the song that inspired me was When you're gone
The wind slowly blowed the curtain, and i felt it fallin on my cheeks
It was so weird, it was like i felt her...
I couldn't sleep all night, and when the morning light shined in my eyes, i closed them...trying to fall asleep...bu ti couldn't...i couldn't sleep these hours, these days, these weeks...i was tired...i couldn`t take it anymore...
I opened my eyes and looked at hte ceiling, then i slowly turned in my right, where she usually was...but now the bed where she laid, was made up on her side...the room was empty, so was I.
I never thought i'd need her so much...The days felt like years, cuz i was now alone...
Fuck it...
Damn it...
Fuck this life...
It's such a bitch...
It always takes away the one you love...
Always...
when you are going i count the steps that you take
do you see how much in need you right now?
when you're gone the pieces of my heart are missing you
when you're gone the face i came to know is missing too
Now she was gone...away...and forever...But all the pieces of my heart were missing her badly...There was nothing i could do to bring her back...
I moved my hands on her side of bed...i took the pillow in my hands and squeezed it close to my face...I could feel it's smell...her smell...It had the scent of her perfume...i loved so much...
Something trickeled my face...I took my face away from the pillow and looked closely at it...It was a hair there...a part of her black long hair...I whised she was here...I whised i held her in my arms, instead this pillow...
But it was too late...I always needed time on my own...and i didn't spent enough time with her...that's why i felt guilty...
She was always there...by my side, behind me, taking care, supporting, loving...I never thought i'll loose her...She was gone, and all the words i needed to hear from her, were missing...and i missed her too...
I`ve never felt this way before...Every little thing that was in the room, everything i was doing reminded me of her...everything that surrounded me had her scent...I could feel her...
The clothes she left were filling the room with her own being...i could never see now...The dress she left in the closet...called me...i had to go closer...
I took it off the coat hanger and took it in my hands...
The dress was so silky...exactly like her body...It was like i touched her...it smelled just like her...
I laid the dress on the bed, carefully...just like the first time i bring her here, in my own arms...
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I laid her genlty on the bed, and placed a softly kiss on her burning lips...
We broke the kiss gently, and i just looked at her. I couldn`t take my eyes away from her. She was too beautiful for this world...But she was mine now, we were living in our own world...
I looked in her green eyes...they were so deep, and they were saying so much...
I hated that i couldn't read them...they were hiding all the felings down there..in the deepes corners of her soul, that i haven`t discovered yet...I wish i had time to do that...i wish i could stop the time and look in her eyes, to drown in them forever...
They were my calm ocean, they were my sun, she was all i ever loved.
"I love you" i whispered
"I'll always love you, Tom" she msiled at me and kissed me heavenly...
And our love was hiden by the world's evil eyes...It was only ours...It was...And it will always be...Because I LOVE HER. I still do.
I just needed her so much right now...But she was gone, her face was missing...
I knew from the very first time i saw her that we were made for each other, and we were supposed to be forever...I just know it...
And i wanted to let her know, that everything i was doing, i gave my heart and soul...and i always loved her so...it's just, i didn't managed to tell her at time...That is what i hate most of all...That's why i felt guilty...
Where was i when she needed me?
Where was i ?
Where was i when she had to leave?
Where was i when she wanted to say goodbye?
Where was i when she screamed my name?
Where was i when she quitely said she loves me?
Where was i when she left?
Her words always got me through the day...
I missed her...
That day i went to the cemitery...I had to...I did that for the first time, after she died, i couldn;t even go to her funeral...Maybe it was a sin, but she knew how much i suffered...
I couldn't accept her death...It was like a nightmare, and i couldn`t wake up. I whised she was there when i opened my eyes...But every morning, i realised that i was wrong.
I steped unsure on the wet grass...It was too green, so that hurted my eyes.
Every step i made, leaded me closer to her last home...To her grave...
i stopeed in front of it...I kneeled in fron of it, and i let my tears out...i couldn;t held them anymore...
I put the white rose at the bottom of her grave...I looked at her portrait and felt her presence there...
I came closer to the grave and i kissed her countenance...then i looked at her portrait...and whispered
"I miss you"
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